Peace
is around the corner
Marion
Pargaman, Jerusalem
I would like to tell you about a quite extraordinary
event that happened to me during the ,,walk" organized by Tovana, the
group of Vipasana (Buddhist) meditation in Israel. What happened was a
very personal experience but I feel it is important to share it with other
people. The Walk took place on the first week of April. lt intended to
give an opportunity for Palestinians and Israelis to walk together, to
develop dialogue and self introspection, inspired by the ancient
traditions that guided people like Mahatma Gandhi and Martin Luther
King.What I experienced on the last day was very much in the spirit of
peace and coexistence, of calm and serenity created by the walk in the
midst of the atmosphere of insanity and violence around us. During 8 days,
participants walked together from Tel Aviv-Yaffo to Jerusalem, passing by
Jewish and Arab towns and settlements, in silence and awareness, declaring
a commitment to deep listening and non-violence.
I joined the Walk with a group of Palestinians and
Israelis who practice meditation and mindfulness together according to the
tradition of Thich Nhat Hanh, a Vietnamese Zen Buddhist monk and famous
peace worker. I participated in several days of the Walk. Monday 8th of
April, the last day of the Walk, was the eve of the Holocaust day, a day
of deep emotion for the Jewish community.
It went from Ein Kerem, through Jerusalem
to the foot ofthe old city walls. I planned to join the group from the
morning, but after a sleepless night I decided to join later.In the early
afternoon I park my car at the final meeting place ofthe Walk. I walk up
to the walls of the old city, to meet them on their way. When I get to
Jaffa gate, I find myself in front of a very agitated elderly Arab man
exchanging insults with an elderly religious Jew who is standing at a bus
station a few meters lower down. Some policemen from a Border Police
patrol are trying to calm them down, so that it won't turn into a fight,
as they are extremely angry. I stand beside the Arab; I speak to him
calmly and ask him to sit down without reacting to the other's
provocation. I am quite impressed by the restraint shown by the policemen
.They don't defend one side or the other and respect both sides.
The bus arrives, the Jewish man boards the bus and the
situation seems to have settled down. Then, a Jewish woman who was there
in the queue from the beginning of the argument, and who did not get into
the bus, takes upon herself to start insulting the Arab who reacts
immediately. The police have gone and I am left alone to try to calm the
situation. I give my attention to the Arab who would have stayed quiet if
he was not continually provoked by the woman. I try from a distance to
reason with her without success. She stops a passing police car and says
something to the policeman who walks up to the Arab. I explain him what is
going on and he goes back to the woman. I am so happy that all the
policemen in this situation act so calmly and help to restore peace.
Then, a Palestinian woman on her way to Jaffa gate
burst onto the scene; she jumps to the conclusion that the old Arab is
under ,,attack" and rushes in a frenzy to
rescue him. She yells some insults at the Jewish
woman who was beginning to calm down, and the situation heats up again.
All my attention is now focused on her. I feel she is like a bomb ready to
explode. I try to explain to her what is going on, but she is furious with
me, sereaming out her hatred, her despair and
her pain.This is Palestine accusing Israel. At this moment I represent
Israel for her.
This whole situation is greater than the two of us and
takes on proportions beyond our present meeting. She shouts out her sorrow
about what is going on now in the territories, the military incursions
into Palestinian towns. She talks in particular about Jenin where some
terrible fighting is now taking place. She has family and friends there
and she says that our soldiers are war criminals. She is convinced that we
want to kill them all. Why do we hate them so much? They are not
responsible for the Holocaust, why should they be paying the price? She
tells me about the refugees and their constant suffering for which we are
responsible! Pointing at the Jewish woman, she assures me that this
Sephardic woman was treated with honor, as a human being, in an Arab
counrty from where she comes, and look at how she behaves with
Palestinians now!
It goes on and on; she shouts and spews her hatred for
Israel at me.I dont try to argue with her at all. I dont show any reaction
to all these accusations. I feel a huge compassion and an intense need to
listen to her, only listen to her.
My patience is nourished by understanding that behind
this overwhelming hatred is a deep suffering and pain aggravated by the
present situation of war. It must express itself in some way so that
healing can take place. I am ready to listen to what appears to me as the
worst accusations, distortions or calumnies, without reacting.I am aware
that what reinforces my strength at this moment is that I have absolutely
no doubt that the suffering and pain of the Israeli people is not less
real and legitimate. I don't let myself get tempted or trapped into guilt
or anger. I am sorry for the tragedy on both sides. My compassion for her
is not on the account of the compassion and sense of loyalty I have for my
own people, for myself. For me this is not an issue of who is right and
who is wrong. I feel very very calm and peaceful deep inside. I know that
it is the only way to calm her fury.
I let her express herself for a long time without
interrupting her. As she continues to shout at me, I tell her that she has
no need to speak so loudly because I am listening to her with all my
attention. At the same time I find myself caressing her arm. She lets me
do it and progressively lowers her voice, while continuing to let her
despair overflow. She says to me: ,,Do you understand why some of us come
and commit suicide among you? You kill us anyway, so why not kill you at
the same time?" She even mentions the possibility of coming and
blowing herself up out of despair.I tell her softly that I don't want her
to die. Nobody should come to this decision. We all suffer on both sides.
She goes on and on claiming that the Zionists only want to get rid of the
Palestinians. I tell her: ,,You see I am a Zionist and I don't want to get
rid of you. I wish we could live together as good neighbors". She
listens to me! She teIls me about the demonstration that took place the
week before near Ramallah. She complains about
the Jewish organizations who took part in it. Then she asks me to donate
some money to buy phone cards for Palestinians who need them. I give her
some money. Ar this stage the conversation is quite normal between us. She
doesn't shout any more, she is even able to listen to me. She is almost
calm when I notice the people of the Walk approaching us slowly, at the
top of the street.
They are in a line, a hundred of them, one after the
other walking in silence, slowly, quietly, aware of each step, creating an
atmosphere of peace and safety around them. They are very present. They
radiate calm and warmth. I point them our to her and explain that this is
the reason I came here, to join a walk of peace in which Palestinians and
Israeli are together. I teIl her about the Walk, its message of
coexistence and peace; peace at every step, here and now. I suggest that
she come into the line with me. She hesitates and rejects my offer. At
this moment they reach us. Several people I know shake my hand warmly as
they go by. A young woman very active in a group of rapprochement between
the two peoples, approaches her and gives her a kiss. It appears that they
know each other. I notice that she is very moved by the Walk and the
atmosphere it radiates. She seems to me calmer and calmer. Nothing like
the furious woman I met only several minutes before. The end of the line
passes by us and I want to join it. Again I invite her and again she
declines. I teIl her that I understand and respect her decision.
Before I go I teIl her: ,,I am sure that some day we
will succeed in building peace between us." She smiles and replies:
,,Me too".Then to my total surprise, she comes close to me and kisses
me on my cheeks! She walks alongside the line for a while. She tells me
that she likes this Walk, that it makes her feel good, gives her relief
and that her mood is much better now. I am very very moved. I feel
overwhelmed by this encounter, especially by its unexpected ending. Peace
was there around the corner, I did not miss it!!
I was aware that an intense moment of real
reconciliarion had taken place. Everything contributed to it. Incredible
timing that brought me to this place at this time; that brought her, in
her turn, with enough time to first pour out her anger, to receive needed
listening and compassion, time to calm down, so that she could be
receptive to the subtle quiet energy of the Walk. The WaIk, emanating
intense healing, bringing the tangible presence of peace and goodwill of a
whole organized group, appeared just in time to complete the scene, adding
a wider perspective to an individual encounter. The thick walls of her
hatred were shattered allowing her to express what was deep in her heart.
Kissing me was a miracle!
Within a short period of time, laden wirh emotions, her
energy of hatred and death underwent an inecedible transformation. I don't
know if, or how quickly, she returned to her initial state or how long she
remained calm. I know that this profound transformation was very real and
intense; no matter what followed, it will leave a trace and a memory that
cannot disappear.
A seed of peace was sown in her heart. We must plant
many more, and water them thoroughly. I never understood so fully the deep
meaning of the words pronounced by Thich Nhat Hanh in Shangai on l9th
October, after the 11 th September tragedy:
,,Terror is in the human heart. We must remove this
from the heart. Destroying the human heart, both physically and
psychologically, is what we should avoid.
The root of terrorism is misunderstanding, hatred and
violence. This root cannot be located by the military. Bombs and missiles
cannot reach it, let alone destroy it. Only with the practice of calming
and looking deeply can our insight reveal and identify this root. Only
with the practice of deep listening and compassion can it be transformed
and removed. Darkness cannot be dissipated with more darkness. More
darkness will only make darkness thicker. Only light can dissipate
darkness. Those of us who have the light should display the light and
offer it so that the world will not sink into total darkness."
This story is not mine alone. I know I have the duty to
tell it to as many people as possible, so that planting seeds of peace may
go on and on.
Marion
Pargaman
lebt in Jerusalem
ist aktives
Mitglied der
Friedensbewegung
in Israel.
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